Losing My Love!!

for me it was one of my greatest mistake. 

she was my dream girl and the one who gave me all the care in the world expressively.

i never believed in destiny but now i am forced..
She was so sensitive and so cute and gave everything to me and her belief in me was amazing.

when did it start?

i was worried about the life with her because of our financial status, as, it was for sure that both of us will be kicked out from our houses, both the families were so strict and the father figures were equally terrible.

still i pity myself, for a man who was not able to take a decision about the greatest event of his life is just a loser, and have no excuses or to put the blame on the other.

now prepared mentally to receive the curse if she ever does so!!!
because, i deserve and i was at the wrong end...

ajay, it was you and only you who lost all the chance to live a life you wanted to live.

now there is no meaning in blogging al your failures to the world!!

yes, i know this fact, but... whats my other alternative, i can console my self by simplifying the mistake and blaming it on destiny and may be i can forget the past or try to forget.....

living only for myself and thus living for something and that is what haunts me...

my dear, forgive me and i have nothing more to say to you...

you live happily with him, and my fate and my life will be like this,
in the midst of all luxury but unable to enjoy anything to its extremes..